I'M GONNA LOSE IT!!!!!!

It's finally all piling up on me and I feel like I can't breathe! Right now it's a constant struggle for my time between School, work and training and what's suffering the most is my SANITY!

I'm trying hard to fit it all in, and obviously school and work are pretty rigid in terms of scheduling, so what suffers? What suffers is the one thing that keeps me sane (other than my lil Tuna who has been amazing), running. I'm still trying to run as much as I can, following the program I've set for myself for the Gold Coast Marathon, but some days it's just not an option. Not to be cocky or anything, but I'm GOOD, REAL GOOD at time management. I do well with schedules and being punctual and getting things done and being where I need to be when I need to be there. What's screwing this all up and what's driving me insane is that my boss (owner of the stores) at work texts me the night before a shift and tells me I need to be somewhere in the morning, or somewhere different, or my hours are different. How do I work with that! For example two nights ago he texted me and said to call him, so I did, and he asked me to meet another guy at the store for 8 (I normally start at 9) to come to Bankstown (near Sydney) for the day because they were having a centre court sale and were under staffed. So I said whatever ok, but I need to be back in the Gong for 6 because I have a meeting with some people from school for a group project thing (not really, but if I didn't say that, he would have had me there til 9PM). So I was supposed to run 19k yesterday and obviously can't do that if I have to be AT the store for 8AM, and then we didn't end up getting back until about 10 to 7. Super frustrating. So last night at (NO JOKE) 11:23 he texts me again and asks if I can do the Bankstown thing again. I pretty much said no. I called him and said 3 things. When I applied and had my interview, I said I can only do 20 hours per week (he said that he'll pay me under the table for anything over 20 hours), I said I was looking for something IN Wollongong AND I need something with a regular schedule because I can't be THIS flexible, so if that's what he needs then cool but I can't be that person. He said alright, told me to take today OFF and maybe work one of the days on the weekend and to call him this morning. So I will and we'll see what he says.
What a headace. The job is wicked but this cat reminds me too much of Khalid. I have a bad taste in my mouth and it's not the terrible coffee I'm drinking right now. I can't wait to get home and have a good cup of coffee again.

School work is coming along. This week I handed in a 2750 word essay for Learning and Behaviour, an English Assignment of 5 lesson plans and a report, AND a Numeracy lesson plan with a report of 2000 words total. Today we have a group thing due for Literacy which is 4 lesson plans and about a 2000 word essay. Monday I have my Aboriginal journal due which is 4 entries at about 500 words each, about articles we are supposed to read. Then Tuesday we have a group presentation in Learning and Behaviour. HOLY MOLY BATMAN THAT'S A LOT!

Running is going well-ish. We'll see where it's at next weekend in Canberra when we run the half marathon. If I can kick my ass to a sub 1:30 I'll be happy. If I can beat my previous best of 1:27:47 I'll be both schocked and ecstatic. Either way I'm about 8 weeks from the Gold Coast marathon which is priority number one. It's a fastish course and I'm confident I can do the 3:10, I couldn't tomorrow, but by then I will be able to. I've just got to be consistent with training and dieting. I'm sitting around 167 or so and would like to get down to UNDER 160 by the time the race rolls around. We'll see how that shakes out. Tunes' training took a bit of a hit for the past few weeks. She's been sick and will probably just start running again this weekend so we'll see how she feels with that and go from there.