The enormity of it.

It's hitting me. It's just about time to put up or shut up. I've been bombarding myself and others with '3:10 To Boston'. Everyone at school knows about it. Everyone on facebook knows about it. I put it way out there as extra motivation to train my ass off, accountability is an excellent motivational tool. It's worked. Many a time I've imagined the two scenarios, one where I have to tell people how disappointed I am that I've once again failed to meet my marathon goal, and one of true elation, where I can be SO proud of myself that I've accomplished this enormous goal. The Boston Marathon means more and more to me. It's somewhat of a symbol of success in what I do, a gold standard that separates those who just like to run, from those who really like to push limits and see what they can do. I know I WILL run the Boston Marathon, that's not in question. I get better and better every single year, just a week ago I ran 42.2k in training! And ran it 8 minutes faster than my previous marathon record (and only previous 42.2k run). Those who know me know how impatient I am. I want it NOW. I've been a runner for a few years, I ran my first marathon last year, but I want this NOW. It'll be a testament to the lifestyle I lead and justify it. This is huge. I CAN'T wait to get there. I can't wait to get in the excitement of a race weekend and get to be a part of it. I've raced twice, but they were relatively low-key races, and went to Ironman Australia, but wasn't racing. I crave that feeling of being a part of something huge! There's NO feeling in the world like being at a race, the energy is simply unbelievable, SO many positive people in one area.

I also look forward to seeing Julia finish her marathon and realize her own potential, that will be special also, and hopefully I'll be able to get some good photos of her finish! But who knows, she may finish ahead of me again, just like in Canberra. :)